It’s been a whirlwind week.
To be honest, my life right now, doesn’t seem real. I kind of feel like I’m in a tunnel underwater, with my head all fuzzy, and my senses out of whack.
My debut novel released early (on Amazon) one week ago tonight. And it’s been nuts.
I went from barely thinking I’d break even to turning a small profit (I am by no means making a shit ton of money as some have claimed) and it’s nice. When I released Alluring Turmoil, I didn’t know if I’d make back the money I spent on producing it. I thought I would have to wait until Book 2 came out and see how things went.
But things are not all nice in the world of writing, and just like everything else, it has it’s not good and hurtful moments.
The things is… I wrote my book, so do I think it’s good? Of course.
What author doesn’t think their work is good?
If we thought our writing was shit, why would we release it? But I have never and will never say I am better than anyone else or look down at anyone.
It’s not the way I was raised and it’s not in me to do so.
I respect everyone until they give me a reason not to. I am happy for people’s success and it hurts me when an author is attacked or turned on, because every writer who puts their stuff out there is vulnerable.
When you release a book, you are releasing a piece of yourself and you are asking the world to “like” it, thus you are asking the world to like you. So, when people are in effect “mean” because they don’t know you and make assumptions, I don’t care who you are or how thick your skin is, it hurts.
Last night was a very rough night for me and I won’t lie, I was immensely hurt and pissed, but today, I’m over it.
I’m not going to spend another second of time that I can be spending time with my kids and husband (the most important people in my life), writing, or being “me” with and around the people who do know me and have taken the time to get to know me on worrying about what people I don’t know think.
I’ve never done it before and I won’t now.
Bottom line is I know who I am and what I’m about and those that do know me, know exactly the type of person I am too.
And that person is a kick ass wife. A mommy to 2 special babies. A daughter. A sister. A friend. A writer. An editor. A nurse. A chauffeur. A cook. A maid. A barista. A boo boo kisser. A dragon slayer. A blogger. A dancer. An event planner. An animal lover. Etc.
I assume nothing about anyone else, and if I see a problem or think something is meant one way, but I’m not certain about it, I ask the person… and I don’t think it’s too much to ask for the same respect in return.